It is the last week of classes of my undergraduate career! Can I just say that I am so excited! Yes, student loans will be rolling in and I have no set career plans, but my life is free for me to do what I want. SO, for now I am just going to see where life takes me, because it has done a pretty good job so far.
It’s official. I’m graduating. Wow, that is one of the scariest thoughts that I’ve had in a very long time. All it means is loans, bills, and working that 9 to 5. Who knew when I was 5-years-old that being a “grown-up” would be so daunting? I thought it was a series of fun grown-up things like parties and going out to dinner with other people. WRONG!
I know that you do these things, but there is so much more to it than just fun. It’s more about hard work, paying taxes, paying mortgages, and hopefully having enough money to go out for a meal from time to time. Yet, with the economy the way it is today…the future looks a little bleak.
So, with about $35,000 of student loans to pay off and no job with a steady income. I look forward to see how dire things become before they get better. On that happy note, I think I will leave all you bloggers right now to search for pennies underneath the chair cushions.
Have you ever had everything you ever hoped for and you still weren’t happy? I mean, I have a great boyfriend, a great job lined up, and I am a few short weeks from college graduation. So why am I so unhappy? I mean everything is coming together, but there is still a part of me that feels held back.
Not to go into too many details, there is someone that has appeared in my life that has kind of turned it upside down. This person is so familiar, yet so different from anyone I have ever known. However, significant others seem to be the only thing in the way, but they are so intangled in our lives…it is impossible to set them aside.
So, for now, I will just go on and pretend to be happy and deal with the fact that nothing can be done because the timing and situation is just not right…
Ugh, is it over yet? I have the most awful cold ever. All my projects are due. I have no time to sleep and did I mention that I have the most awful cold ever?! My doctor thinks it might be a respiratory infection. GREAT! Just what I need at the end of the most grueling semester ever. At least Europe is coming soon and then a great internship in NYC. Oh well…here’s to the next few weeks of hell!
So, as graduation draws closer, I’m excited to report that I will be spending most of May in Europe! My good friend Sophie and I will be traveling around Europe and living life! With no idea of what the future holds and where I am going to end up, I can’t wait to just go and experience new things and meet new people. As life begins to change, it makes me realize how important it is to take chances and see where they take you. Who knows what tomorrow holds? All I know is that I have today and I have to make the most of it. Am I scared, of course! However, I know that life will lead me to where I am meant to be. So, I am just going to sit back and enjoy the ride! Ciao!
It’s broken. Into a million pieces I’m shattered. I cannot think straight. My thinking is all scrambled into thousands of emotions that I cannot fit together. I cannot tell him. I cannot tell him of the uncertainty that plagues the future he has planned. My heart is full whenever I think or dream of him. Yet, he is so far. Will we ever come together as we hope? Or will it only consist of chance meetings and brief encounters. Hi wishes to give me the ring, symbolizing that we will be together forever. I don’t know if that is what I want right now. I want to make sure that he is the one that will make me happy for the rest of my life. Yet there is so much to still experience, so much to accomplish. Is this what is meant for me? To be with my first love until the day they lay my body to rest? Is this all that my future holds? I need the clarity to act on the uncertainty. I need to see what is meant to be. I need to just let it all go…
