I just don’t know…
It’s broken. Into a million pieces I’m shattered. I cannot think straight. My thinking is all scrambled into thousands of emotions that I cannot fit together. I cannot tell him. I cannot tell him of the uncertainty that plagues the future he has planned. My heart is full whenever I think or dream of him. Yet, he is so far. Will we ever come together as we hope? Or will it only consist of chance meetings and brief encounters. Hi wishes to give me the ring, symbolizing that we will be together forever. I don’t know if that is what I want right now. I want to make sure that he is the one that will make me happy for the rest of my life. Yet there is so much to still experience, so much to accomplish. Is this what is meant for me? To be with my first love until the day they lay my body to rest? Is this all that my future holds? I need the clarity to act on the uncertainty. I need to see what is meant to be. I need to just let it all go…
