It is the last week of classes of my undergraduate career!  Can I just say that I am so excited!  Yes, student loans will be rolling in and I have no set career plans, but my life is free for me to do what I want.  SO, for now I am just going to see where life takes me, because it has done a pretty good job so far. 

It’s official.  I’m graduating.  Wow, that is one of the scariest thoughts that I’ve had in a very long time.  All it means is loans, bills, and working that 9 to 5.  Who knew when I was 5-years-old that being a “grown-up” would be so daunting?  I thought it was a series of fun grown-up things like parties and going out to dinner with other people.  WRONG! 

I know that you do these things, but there is so much more to it than just fun.  It’s more about hard work, paying taxes, paying mortgages, and hopefully having enough money to go out for a meal from time to time.  Yet, with the economy the way it is today…the future looks a little bleak. 

So, with about $35,000 of student loans to pay off and no job with a steady income.  I look forward to see how dire things become before they get better.  On that happy note, I think I will leave all you bloggers right now to search for pennies underneath the chair cushions. 

Have you ever had everything you ever hoped for and you still weren’t happy?  I mean, I have a great boyfriend, a great job lined up, and I am a few short weeks from college graduation.  So why am I so unhappy?  I mean everything is coming together, but there is still a part of me that feels held back. 

Not to go into too many details, there is someone that has appeared in my life that has kind of turned it upside down.  This person is so familiar, yet so different from anyone I have ever known.  However, significant others seem to be the only thing in the way, but they are so intangled in our lives…it is impossible to set them aside. 

So, for now, I will just go on and pretend to be happy and deal with the fact that nothing can be done because the timing and situation is just not right…

Ugh, is it over yet?  I have the most awful cold ever.  All my projects are due.  I have no time to sleep and did I mention that I have the most awful cold ever?!  My doctor thinks it might be a respiratory infection. GREAT!  Just what I need at the end of the most grueling semester ever.  At least Europe is coming soon and then a great internship in NYC.  Oh well…here’s to the next few weeks of hell!

So, as graduation draws closer, I’m excited to report that I will be spending most of May in Europe!  My good friend Sophie and I will be traveling around Europe and living life!  With no idea of what the future holds and where I am going to end up, I can’t wait to just go and experience new things and meet new people.  As life begins to change, it makes me realize how important it is to take chances and see where they take you.  Who knows what tomorrow holds?  All I know is that I have today and I have to make the most of it.  Am I scared, of course!  However, I know that life will lead me to where I am meant to be.  So, I am just going to sit back and enjoy the ride!  Ciao! 

    It’s broken.  Into a million pieces I’m shattered.  I cannot think straight.  My thinking is all scrambled into thousands of emotions that I cannot fit together.  I cannot tell him.  I cannot tell him of the uncertainty that plagues the future he has planned.  My heart is full whenever I think or dream of him.  Yet, he is so far.  Will we ever come together as we hope?  Or will it only consist of chance meetings and brief encounters.  Hi wishes to give me the ring, symbolizing that we will be together forever.  I don’t know if that is what I want right now.  I want to make sure that he is the one that will make me happy for the rest of my life.  Yet there is so much to still experience, so much to accomplish.  Is this what is meant for me?  To be with my first love until the day they lay my body to rest?  Is this all that my future holds?  I need the clarity to act on the uncertainty.  I need to see what is meant to be.  I need to just let it all go…

So, spring break is coming up and it’s a time when college students travel all over to get away from it all.  But the question is, do we really get away? 

With technology, we are all connected.  Whether we want to be or not, the world is growing smaller and the possibilites are growing bigger.  I know for me personally having a long distance relationship with a person who lives in Europe would not be a possibility for me if there was not the invention of the internet, Skype, etc.  These things are my lifeline when it comes to keeping this relationship afloat. 

When thinking about the next few years ahead of me, I wonder if the possibilites offered will help keep me, along with the other 6 billion people in the world connected.  In my mind, it will.  This connectivity offers endless possibilities and I have only discovered the tip of the iceberg. 

This week we were allowed to blog about whatever we felt like.  To be honest, I really don’t feel like writing about anything.  When you experience loss, it all just seems so trivial.  We are so caught up on getting ahead, being up on the latest trends, trying to be ahead of the curve, but none of this really matters in the end. 

Being so caught up in this race to be the biggest and the best, we tend to forget what is truly important in life.  Family, friends, and being with the people in your life who love you for the person you are- that is what’s important.  We learn about advancements in technology and strategies to deal with crisis situations, but none of it matters when the people who matter most are gone.

I am guilty of being so caught up in the chaos that I forgot how important it is to stop and enjoy the simple things in life.  Reflecting upon the life of a person that I love and on my own, I can’t help but wonder what was so important that I couldn’t be with her more during the time when she needed me the most.  To be honest, I could not think of a thing. 

So, since we were allowed to blog about anything this week, I ask anyone who reads this to stop to appreciate the people in their life that matter most.  Because, you never know when that day will come when you turn around and they aren’t there to comfort you. 

When I think internet, I think Facebook, fashion, and food.  It allows me to stay connected to my friends all over the world, keep up with trends and latest insider tips, and read reviews about fabulous new restaurants in the city.  I am a cosmopolitan girl living in the suburbs and the internet is one of the ways that keeps me in tune, so when I get there, I’ll be ready! 

Like Gladwell says in The Tipping Point, the successful internet campaign must be a quick and dramatic change, contagious or addictive, and have a large effect.  In all intents and purposes, I agree.  My self-admitted addiction to Facebook and Style.com exemplifies that this theory is TRUE!  It all starts out with the little idea, it grows, takes off, and becomes indispensible.  Well, that is what these websites are to me.  Without them, I would be lost, frustrated, and wondering how I could make my big city dreams work. 

When we were discussing last class about how a successful PR representative must be a generalist, it made me think: am I really up on all the trends and events that affect the decisions these people must make?   

Taking the NYTimes quiz and brainstorming the various lists, I realized that I was.  Wholeheartedly, I agree that watching the news or taking ten minutes to look at an online newspaper has increased my knowledge and awareness, but it is far from being deeply informed.  However, not knowing a lot about a little is ok.  In fact, it’s better that way.    

Being able to have an understanding of many of the events and trends going on in the world has allowed me to make the connections of how they all influence each other.  This has also allowed me to understand more fully the book, “The Tipping Point.”  The main idea is that small events and ideas lead to the headlining trends, events and stories that are plastered on front page news.  It makes the fact clear that knowing a little about a lot can indeed make you a “deadly weapon.”  

So, when I am checking out the latest issue of Vogue or taking in the newest cooking show, I don’t feel so guilty.  Because, as the book and talking in class has taught me, you never know when you might need that interesting piece of information or story to push you over the edge.  Therefore, I will continue to indulge all the while making connections with the more pressing stories and trying to find that almost indefinitive tipping point.